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16 February 2007 @ 04:39 pm
Remarkable revelation  
This article explains a LOT about why college was so hard for me, and my psyche in general.
Hillarysusanofstohelit on February 17th, 2007 04:02 am (UTC)
wow. thank you for linking this.
iophaiopha on February 17th, 2007 04:02 am (UTC)
Thanks for the link. I'll be passing it around the grad department here...
King of the Voidabaddonx99 on February 17th, 2007 06:03 am (UTC)
Man, that really resonates.
though she be but little, she is fierce: Adarrahilabeans on February 17th, 2007 06:11 am (UTC)
It does explain a lot... I had already noticed I had a tendency to avoid anything I wasn't "naturally" good at, but I hadn't gone much farther with that line of thought. Thanks; that article is definitely something I'll be sharing.
push loud penspush_loud_pens on February 17th, 2007 06:32 am (UTC)
yeah that + getting the shit beat out of me by my peers pretty much a few times a week from 1st-8th grade has kinda made me into an insecure nutjob alternately fearing and craving intimacy the seeks to maintain the facade of being superintelligent about everything and uses that intelligence as a weapon in any sort-of interpersonal conflict with loved ones and tends to look down on everyone (even myself) for not being smart enough

i had a super hard time getting to college and realizing the not only wasnt i the smartest person the room but there were a shitload of people smarter than i could ever think of being.
❀✯ L.E. Arroway ✭✈: duranlyght on February 17th, 2007 04:39 pm (UTC)
I can definitely see how that's played into my life, although what's interesting to me is that it didn't really show up until fairly late. I tried as hard as I possibly could to kick brain all through high school and thrived not so much on praise as being super competitive in every area possible. That definitely carried over into college, but I have a feeling that I might have actually gone and tried for a chemistry degree rather than bio had I really believed I could succeed at it.

And, well, my choice of grad schools kind of tells the story since Mac. Theoretically it looks like my standards have gone down. Where I'm at now isn't exactly Harvard, partly because I'm less obsessed with grades and status and more interested in balancing my life out and moving towards a specific topic of research. At the same time, I have what I consider to be a challenging advisor from whom I can learn a lot. A mixed bag, I guess.
Doomutilitygeek on February 17th, 2007 05:23 pm (UTC)
Hmm. Based on some of the classes I took at Mac, I guess I'm one of the 10% that asked for the harder test.

On the other hand, I have a pathological fear of being stupid.

On the gripping hand, that fear keeps me from doing any hard drugs, so....
XCorvisxcorvis on February 17th, 2007 09:05 pm (UTC)
Holy crap.
Hoc Est Qui Sumusdiscoflamingo on February 18th, 2007 01:11 am (UTC)
XCorvisxcorvis on February 18th, 2007 06:26 pm (UTC)
Just surprising.
A Carnot engine of self-loathingcalypsomatic on February 18th, 2007 10:51 pm (UTC)
I could have told you that.
It's what I've been saying for years. At least I'm right about something. Knowing what's going on doesn't make it easier ,though.