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20 January 2006 @ 08:44 am
Nicotine Purification has a casting time of 48 hours.  
Yesterday I forgot to put on a nicotine patch (7mg - step three) to assist me in overcoming the physical component of my addiction. I made it through that time without it, and I'm going to ford on through today without one as well. This time around has been different - I have been more aware of the games my addiction is playing, and less judgmental of myself when I feel certain things. This is mostly because I am either at work or alone through most of this, and the knowledge that I'm not going to blow up at anybody is making this easier.

My inner smoker is a right bastard. He angers, inflames, and overturns the moneychanger tables of my brain so that he can monopolize my attention . I genuinely feel that my addiction is another being living inside of me, and more than anything else, he doesn't want to die. And right now, he's pleading like John Turturro in Miller's Crossing for his own pathetic existence.

Tough shit, Buster.
 
 
 
DivineGothdivinegoth on January 20th, 2006 04:30 pm (UTC)
Congrats on quitting!!!

I wish I could convince my father, who started smoking five or six years ago, to quit. I'd also like my sister to quit, but she won't unless her husband does, and that's not likely to happen.
a certain brand of escape: the truthatelierlune on January 20th, 2006 04:42 pm (UTC)
If your inner smoker gets nominated for an Emmy, I think the Academy should snub it.
Nightwalkerhalfawake on January 20th, 2006 07:13 pm (UTC)
I second divinegoth's congrats on quitting smoking. That's certainly a very worthy thing to do.


My inner smoker is a right bastard. He angers, inflames, and overturns the moneychanger tables of my brain so that he can monopolize my attention . I genuinely feel that my addiction is another being living inside of me, and more than anything else, he doesn't want to die.


I have to say that this is the most interesting description of addiction that I've ever heard.
beltramgregor on January 20th, 2006 10:54 pm (UTC)
Dude, if it would make you feel better, you can absolutely bitch me out. There are two reasons for this. 1. I probably deserve it. 2. It won't bother me at all because even if I deserve it I'm immune to mind-effects. I'm picking up the lawyer template. It gives you odd powers.
Hoc Est Qui Sumusdiscoflamingo on January 20th, 2006 11:25 pm (UTC)
1. Bitch, please!
2. Because you're undead? OR a construct? OR an undead construct?
lyght on January 21st, 2006 12:17 am (UTC)
That's the most apt description of addiction I've heard in a while.
A Carnot engine of self-loathingcalypsomatic on January 21st, 2006 08:39 am (UTC)
Whenever I am trying to overcome an addiction, I find it best to replace it with another addiction, such as chocolate, alcohol, sex, or murder.
Gostor of Wafflekaulis on January 24th, 2006 05:45 am (UTC)
May the colorful autumn leaves of your hobbies woosh playfully around it, oblivious to its impending demise, deaf to its pitiful entreaties.