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27 June 2005 @ 05:56 pm
Things which relax me  
So vtraveller has compelled me to do this meme thing, since he said (and I quote):

This guy is known by the people who know him, but hides his true identity (like Superman) from his LJ preferences.  It would be interesting to know.  He's an edgy geek and so it would be interesting to be surprised.

Edgy? Do I seem edgy to people? Because that sounds new. Also, I would like to believe that I maintain an aura of mystery, but it never seems real to me.


The meme is thus: What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Make a list, post it to your journal and then ask five friends to post it to theirs. (leaving off obvious answers like friends, family and sex.) (Ed. - I will not be asking other people to do this, because I don't believe in that sort of thing)

1. Making Virtual Things Dead

This has to be number one. Somehow, there is some primal instinct in me that rewards my slayage of virtual critters, Covenant, Protoss/Terran/Zerg, space pirates, zombies, nazis, and nazi zombies with a glowing warmness in the sub-cockles of my heart. I think it's genetic, and I got it from my dad - he used to come home from deliverying babies and say, "Okay, helped enough people into life today - time to help  some motherfuckers die". Okay, he didn't say motherfuckers, but I know he was thinking it. That was how I was introduced to Doom - I turned off the Care Bears and watched Dad blow the shit out of some gruesome, hulking, undead mutant soldiers/demons etc. There is no moral imperative that any of those things live - and my dad made sure I understood that.

Whether I ultimately grew up as a well-adjusted, fully-functional member of society is left as an exercise to the reader.

2. Coding/Configuring Things

There are days when it makes me want to rip my . I think the main reason I like running Gentoo at home is just putzing with it and tweaking it - I don't know how much time I actually spend using it for task-based activities. I get a similar buzz from writing software or tinkering with pretty much anything. I'm pretty sure I am a Nocker.

3. Listening to Loud And/Or Angry Music

One prospective girlfriend in high school (who I took to Lilth Fair in 1998) was a little surprised when I started getting a mild case of road rage somewhere in Central Wisconsin, and I asked her to put Smash in. You know, the one with "Bad Habit", the song about shooting bad drivers? Yeah - calmed me right now. Then it was Rage Against the Machine and Gravity Kills. I was a grinning hippy by the time I became the third straight man at the 1998 Lilith Fair.

Maybe it's something homeopathic - or maybe I'm just weirdly wired inside. I've never really understood.

4. Walking, and 5. Meditation

These are the two traditional relaxation activities I do to relax, but I don't do them as often as I should/would like. I have a seiza bench, but I rarely use it - I'm hoping I can change this in the near future.
Current Music: Guns N' Roses - November Rain
atelierlune on June 27th, 2005 11:13 pm (UTC)
You've sat seiza? Neat! What's that like?
Hoc Est Qui Sumusdiscoflamingo on June 28th, 2005 04:03 am (UTC)
It's the only kind of meditation that I currently find comfortable. Seeing as how I am so inflexible that sitting cross-legged is painful (I am working on changing that), the seiza position is the easiest position for most Western males to start with.
atelierlune on June 28th, 2005 04:56 am (UTC)
Yay comfort!
Happylittledevilhappy_l_devil on June 28th, 2005 01:34 am (UTC)
Angry music always relaxes me too. I always thought that was funny. I also like making virtual things dead while listening to angry music. Good times.
though she be but little, she is fiercehilabeans on June 28th, 2005 03:13 am (UTC)
Bad Habit was my favorite way of blowing off steam in junior high. After screaming, "You stupid dumbshit goddamn motherfuckers" a few times, all the anger just went away.
Abra SWcloudscudding on June 28th, 2005 03:30 am (UTC)
Heh. Smash is one of my favorite angry-music songs.
Virtual Travellervtraveller on June 28th, 2005 05:18 am (UTC)
heh heh - thanks. I know what you mean about these meme things, but I had a genuine curiosity, so meh, I asked. Sorry if your air of mystery was lost a little.

When I say Edgy by-the-by, I don't mean some sort of detoxed druggy of obsession, I merely mean that your geekism manifests itself on the fringe of pure logic. That's the edge. People can be pretty geeky and just like boxes with flashing lights; this however is different, maybe even a different level of geek, who knows?

The extreme of [3] & [5] is great. Real yin-yang. You Dad is also pretty cool, my parents felt for many years that anything that wasn't a spreadsheet was a waste or time ... I pined for that Atari dammit and it got me nowhere as a kid.

[2] I wish I could say this is me, but it isn't anymore. My lifeforce is weary of doing the same config tasks over and over again; the same frustrations in bad software and the same inability to enforce industrial scale change. I'm also denied coding more and more; more panicked people around me and more rabbits-out-of-hats being pulled off. It can be fun, but most of the time I'm dealing with irrational stressed people. That removes all fun there was.
Hoc Est Qui Sumusdiscoflamingo on June 29th, 2005 04:28 am (UTC)
I would like to think of myself as an ur-geek, but I don't think I really have the stones for it. Some day, I would like to think I did ;-)
Virtual Travellervtraveller on June 29th, 2005 10:49 am (UTC)
Tricky. Is it me or do ur-geek and proto-geek come with a healthy dose of arrogance? I know the latter needs a wizards hat, that's for sure. Oh and sandals.
Angel needs no wings - just a duster & a hackysackcanth on June 28th, 2005 03:56 pm (UTC)
angry music
It still sort of surprises me, but nowadays, angry music has a tendency to just make me more angry. I think I just hold on to my anger longer than the average meat-eating ninja. I dunno.

Anyways, I DID actually come up with something you could help Marjorie and me with if you're at all available and interested. We've got some stuff that we don't think is going to be coming with us on the move. We think it would be best to give it all to a local good will, but we could really use some help getting it there. If you're at all available this weekend, we could use the help.

any thoughts?

Hoc Est Qui Sumusdiscoflamingo on June 29th, 2005 04:29 am (UTC)
Re: angry music
Well, I have a car, and possibly some availability, depending on when Susan/Chase are doing game and having events while they are in town. Please keep me in mind for future endeavors, like this weekend.
Angel needs no wings - just a duster & a hackysackcanth on July 2nd, 2005 07:10 pm (UTC)
Re: angry music
Hey Doc,

Found out that the good will at Fairview and Charles (somewhere toward minneapolis I'm told)is open from 11am -4pm tomorrow. If you are available at any time between then, that would be great. Marjorie's kind of freaking out and she's asking that you choose a time if possible and let us know ahead of time so we can plan. It sounds to me like your plans are somewhat more fluid than that, and to ME, 20 minutes notice would be good enough. Either way, if you're willing and available at all, we would be greatful. Thanks!