February 19th, 2003

Wonderfalls Flamingos

I think I'm better now.

Writing is my only real catharsis right now, and there's just been too much shit piling up lately - that was a breaking point. I don't know whether to delete it or acknowledge that I have a strong destructive impulse right now. I think I'll go with "it's an impulse - leave it be."

I also couldn't sleep last night, which didn't help. And today has been remarkably non-productive - but it's still about baby steps. Cleared out some icons - will probably clear out some more. This is a Gentoo icon - I only wish I made it.

Most importantly - Erin, I'm sorry for blowing up at you, it's just that talking about high school makes me want to be right - it makes me want to think I didn't go through all of that for nothing. But it also makes me hopeless for my own children, and the world in general. Sorry.
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