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03 May 2004 @ 11:18 pm
It gets so lonely these days. I'd like to be able to just write out what I'm feeling, but writing "I'm too tired to think" a dozen times doesn't help anybody.

Since my three biggest problems are depression, smoking, and being overweight, I have nobody to blame but myself. And I do, on close to a daily basis.

Of all the emotions I have tucked away in this stupid body of mine, the most difficult one for me to deal with is compassion.

I'm going to try to get the set from November (Christ) done this week, before people graduate. It won't be as good as I could make it if I kept working on it, but nothing ever is.
Current Mood: depressed
The past is prologuenemoren on May 3rd, 2004 09:40 pm (UTC)
There's a guy in a cubicle at work whom I don't know but who resembles you, and every time I walk by and remember it's someone else it makes me a little sad.
lio on May 4th, 2004 09:19 am (UTC)
Definitely don't let the depression get the best of ya. We all go through it here and there, but it's hereditary in my family, and I'm prone to the chronic kind that often ends up being medicated or hospitalized. Seriously... 14 years ago I was locked up in a psych ward for a while, and pumped full of all kinds of mind-altering meds. Trust me on this one... you don't want that.

Since then I've intentionally taken on a new slant on life: I find it all terribly funny, in a Far Side sort of way. Laughing at how ridiculous most things are gives me enough comfort to make it through the day and tackle my problems one at a time. After a while, even my personal run-ins with Murphy's Law tend to become funny. At least they make for an interesting tale, afterwards. I dunno... It just seems like when you amplify the humor value in every situation, it tends to make the superficial burdens we put on ourselves carry less weight.

You know what, I hardly even know you, so I'm gonna shut up, now. Take it easy, man. :)
Happylittledevilhappy_l_devil on May 4th, 2004 10:52 am (UTC)
Hang in there, Doc, and remember you've got friends.